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  ‘Apparently they’re in there, the old camp hospital.’ Jackie pointed to her right. The three-storey building looked remarkably solid. There was glass in the windows and even thin curtains at some.

  ‘Come on, then, what are we waiting for?’ The sergeant stomped towards a large porch-way. The doors were boarded up. Jackie stepped back to look up at the rows of windows. She caught a glimpse of a figure. ‘Well, they’re in there all right,’ she said, wiping her hand over her wet face and looking around.

  The sergeant banged his fist against the wooden boards. ‘Open up!’

  The door shifted slightly to one side and a tall man with long black hair, thinning at the front, peered round.

  ‘What do you want?’

  Sergeant Blackwood yanked the sheet of wood to one side. ‘We’re coming in. Okay?’ He pushed past the man into an entrance hall, followed by Jackie and the cadets.

  The man wore a long blue kaftan. He tripped over the hem as he stepped back. ‘Hey, you can’t just barge in like this!’ He had a strong Irish accent.

  ‘We can do what we want.’ Sergeant Blackwood pushed his face at him.

  ‘It’s okay, River. Let the pigs in.’ In contrast to his words the young man standing behind the man in the kaftan smiled. He held out his hand towards the sergeant who, ignoring it, grabbed the front of the man’s loose, cheesecloth shirt and twisted it hard so it was tight against his neck. He was lifted up on to his toes.

  ‘Say again,’ the sergeant demanded. ‘Better still, say sorry to my constables.’ He only let go when the word, ‘sorry’ was choked out. The young man’s face was puce.

  ‘That’s better.’ Sergeant Blackwood let go of the shirt and brushed it down with the back of his hand. ‘Now, let’s start again. We’re looking for a young girl – missing from home.’

  ‘And?’ The man tugged his shirt down, pushed his hair behind his ears and adjusted his plaited turquoise headband.

  ‘You in charge around here?’

  ‘Yes, I’m known as the Master.’

  ‘The girl’s called Victoria … Victoria Schormann.’

  There was no response, no shadow of recognition in either man’s face.

  ‘No one of that name here.’

  ‘Five eight, long blonde hair, blue eyes, pretty,’ Jackie said. ‘Aged eighteen.’

  River leered, sucked on his teeth.

  The sergeant glowered.

  The man backed off.

  ‘We’ll be having a look around.’ Sergeant Blackwood said. ‘It’ll be healthier for you if you cooperate.’

  ‘No problem.’ The young man shrugged. ‘Most of the women are in the sewing-room. But feel free to search wherever you wish, man.’

  Both men still stood in their way.

  The sergeant jostled past them. ‘Shift.’ His voice grim. He spoke over his shoulder to the two cadets. ‘Stay together, go to the top floor of the building and start there. Every cupboard, every room. Got it?’

  They nodded. Leaving a stream of rainwater behind them, they hurried along the corridor to a flight of stairs.

  ‘Hey, wait, I’ll get someone to come with you,’ River grinned. He followed them and, pushing a door open called out, ‘Freedom, Cassidy, Zen. Go with them.’

  Three youths, stretching and yawning, followed the cadets.

  The young man turned on his heel and strode away.

  ‘Do you think Jackson and Garner will be all right on their own, Sarge?’ Jackie muttered.

  ‘I think Garner could take on all three of those twerps,’ he murmured.

  Jackie raised her voice. ‘I’ll start here.’ She pushed open a pair of double doors.

  ‘Not scared to be on your own, man?’ River tilted his head.

  ‘No,’ Jackie replied. ‘And I’ll look around on my own. Okay … man?’

  Even so, she was followed by Sergeant Blackwood. ‘Two pairs of eyes better than one.’ His voice was gruff.

  A girl and a youth, both wearing flowing Hindu robes, trailed hand-in-hand behind them.

  Sergeant Blackwood frowned at them.

  ‘Don’t worry, Sarge,’ Jackie muttered, ‘they’re too spaced out to know what they’re doing.’

  It was remarkably quiet in the large room. On one side the windows were half boarded up. In between them rows of thin metal u-shaped rails were fastened to the grimy cream wall. On the floor was dirty cracked green linoleum. Obviously one of the old wards, Jackie thought.

  There was a strong smell of cannabis. Small groups of men were sitting or lying on large colourful mats and cushions, reading or talking. Most of them wore jeans and loose cotton tops. All of them had long hair that flowed over their shoulders.

  They lifted their heads, watched without speaking.

  Sergeant Blackwood stood and sniffed. ‘Hmm, interesting,’ he said. ‘There’s definitely some cell fodder in here, constable – some little creeps who fancy a night at our station.’ He looked around. ‘Who’s first?’ he barked, walking into the group, moving their feet and legs with a lift of his boots. He picked up an ashtray and sniffed again. ‘Don’t suppose any of you lot going to own up to this being yours?’ He held a joint between his forefinger and thumb.

  They shuffled out of his way and, standing up, made for the door. To be stopped in their tracks by the sergeant’s roar. ‘Wait! Young girl…’

  ‘Five-eight, long blonde hair, blue eyes, eighteen,’ Jackie said. ‘Called Victoria … Vicky? Anyone seen her?’

  Without looking at one another the group of men shook their heads.

  ‘Okay. Bugger off,’ the sergeant said. As they left he said to Jackie, ‘and I bet at least one of them’s wanted for something or other.’

  At the far end four men were working at benches and attempting to fasten shelves to the crumbling surface of the wall. They kept their heads down, answering with a quick shake to his questions.

  In the opposite corner of the room three makeshift low tables held vases of wild flowers and were surrounded by two long battered settees covered in woollen shawls. Swathes of orange and yellow material were nailed to the walls. Jackie wondered if that corner would be where the women congregated but there was no one there at the moment.

  She and the sergeant looked around. ‘There’s nowhere to hide in here, anyway,’ he said. ‘Let’s try somewhere else.’

  When they closed the doors behind them Jackie heard one deep voice call out, ‘Peace, pigs.’ Followed by loud guffaws.

  Sergeant Blackwood stopped.

  Jackie moved closer to him. ‘Not worth it, sir.’

  He made a slight movement of his head, his mouth a tight line

  ‘Anything?’ The Irish man was leaning against the wall, casually smoking a thin cigarette. He pushed himself upright and walked alongside them. ‘C’mon, man, we don’t know no what d’ya call her. Give us a break, man.’

  They ignored him.

  ‘Next floor?’ Sergeant Blackwood said.

  ‘Yes.’ Jackie led the way along the corridor, carefully avoiding the broken tiles on the floor. Rubble had been pushed back to the skirting boards on either side but all along the walls were covered in artwork. She had to admit, some of them were skilfully done, even beautiful, but she made no comment. Small rooms led off. One looked as though it had been some sort of sluice or washroom during its time as a hospital. Out of curiosity Jackie turned on the tap. Water gushed out. What’s betting the Council don’t know about that, she thought. Turning the mains off would have been a sure way of moving this lot on as soon as they’d arrived.

  River had dropped back to join the couple behind them. All three waited as Jackie and Sergeant Blackwood peered into each room. Most were bare; possibly they could have been offices or rest-rooms, Jackie guessed. All were empty.

  The next floor was different from the one they’d just left. Although there was similar linoleum and the walls were the same grimed-over cream colour, this time the room held twelve mattresses, divided by an assortment of curtains and sheets of materia
l hung on the old rails. Each space was furnished in the same way: a mattress, a small table with a drawer, an upright chair. The only differences were the assortment of old-fashioned clothes-horses, draped with individual clothes: flowery or striped skirts, baggy cotton trousers, paisley or loosely-woven cotton blouses, long coats. No photographs, no pictures. Nothing. The same sweet smell of cannabis pervaded the room but there was no one. And nowhere for anyone to hide.

  ‘Listen.’ the sergeant lifted a finger. ‘There’s someone talking in the next room.’

  They walked between the beds and pushed open the door.

  There was no furniture at all. A group of twelve women were sitting cross-legged on mats on the floor. All were either knitting, crocheting or sewing by hand. None of them was Victoria. They stopped their chatter as soon as Jackie stepped inside the room. The sergeant stood back, almost stepping on the trio following them.

  ‘I’m looking for a girl called Victoria,’ Jackie said, going from face to face, hoping to see a glimmer of recognition at the name. But the women shook their heads and looked down again, studiously working on their crafts. ‘No? No one knows anything about a Victoria? We thought she might be here.’

  An older woman stood and came towards them. ‘We have no one of that name here.’ She looked past Jackie to River and inclined her head. Jackie spun round to see what the man was doing but he only gazed blankly at her. ‘As you can see, there’s only us here.’ The woman turned away with a swish of her skirt and bent to pick up a pair of very fat knitting needles. She wrapped thick multi-coloured wool around them. ‘I think that’s all for now, ladies,’ she said. ‘It’s time to make the meal.’

  They filed past Jackie, heads bowed. One or two let their eyes slide sideways, a small smile on their lips, but most of them averted their heads.

  The two cadets appeared at the doorway of the long room.

  ‘Nothing, sir,’ Garner called, standing aside to let the women pass. ‘Just seems to be mainly a floor where the men sleep, with four smaller rooms off at the side.’

  ‘Sure?’ the sergeant glared at them. Jackie could almost hear him seething.

  ‘Sure, sir.’

  Sergeant Blackwood turned to Jackie. ‘Waste of time then, Constable.’

  ‘Is there anywhere else,’ she asked River. ‘Any other rooms, any place?’

  He shook his head. ‘No.’

  ‘I’m going to check again.’

  ‘No, you’re not, Constable Howarth.’ Sergeant Blackwood’s voice was clipped, irritated. ‘We’ve wasted enough time.’

  ‘What about a cellar, a basement?’

  ‘You can go down there,’ River drawled, ‘but you’ll only get as far as the first door. It’s blocked off, has been since before we got here.’ He lifted his shoulders again. ‘Most of the walls inside have collapsed. There’s no way you can get through. But by all means have a go, I think we’ve got some shovels somewhere.’

  The young couple, still holding hands and swaying in unison, giggled.

  ‘Like I said, Constable, we’ve been here long enough,’ the sergeant said. ‘It’ll take all afternoon for you to complete the paperwork on this farce. Car-keys!’

  Jackie fished around in her jacket pocket and handed them to him.

  ‘Right. Come on, you two useless buggers,’ he shouted at the cadets.

  They scurried after him.

  Jackie followed them to the ground floor. She took a chance. ‘The basement?’

  River rolled his eyes and tilted his head to the right. ‘Through that door. Like I said, that’s about as far as you’ll get. You won’t get in.’

  ‘I’ll decide that,’ she snapped. She took her cap off and held it in one hand.

  The first door was swollen but she managed to squeeze through it, leaving it open enough for her to see. The walls were rough under her palm as she felt her way down a couple of gritty stone steps to a broken door. Bricks and dust shifted behind it but it only opened so far, letting out a smell of damp and mould. ‘Damn.’ The creepy bastard was right; it was blocked. She stooped quickly as a whistling flutter of pigeons swooped past her head.

  ‘What the fuck!’ There was scuffling above her in the corridor where River was waiting. Jackie grinned. ‘Hope they’ve shit on you,’ she muttered. The thought occurred to her that if the birds had got into the basement there had to be an opening somewhere. But not big enough for anybody to get through, she reasoned.

  Back upstairs she brushed the dust and cobwebs off her hair and cape. The birds had gone. There was a line of pigeon shit on the front of River’s kaftan.

  Jackie grinned. She couldn’t resist. ‘You’ll need to wash that off pretty quick before it stains,’ she said, settling her cap on her head.

  As she passed River to leave, he leaned towards her, pursing his lips and making kissing sounds. She glanced around. The others had lost interest and disappeared; she was alone with this revolting man. Without a second thought she lifted her regulation shoe and stamped it down on his sandaled foot. The howl of anguish was very satisfying.

  Outside the rain was worse. Jackie looked upwards. The sky was a dark shimmering cover of thick cloud. The others were already at the gate. None of them looked back. Over by the station a train screamed past, its whistle, as it went through, a fading echo.

  There was a shout. The sergeant was half-in and half-out of the Austin. Even through the sheet of rain she could see his red angry face. She grimaced; her life wouldn’t be worth living for the next few days.

  Chapter 25: Victoria Schormann

  Ashford, morning: Tuesday, September 23rd

  ‘They’ve gone.’ River crouched down and peered inside the large pipe.

  ‘Thank God for that; it stinks in here.’ Seth wriggled out of the blanket that he’d shared with Victoria for the last hour.

  River scowled. ‘One of the bloody bitches stamped on my foot. I’ll be keeping a lookout for her on the outside. She’ll be sorry.’ When he suddenly grinned he showed nicotine-stained teeth.

  ‘Forget it, River,’ Seth said. ‘We don’t want to invite trouble.’

  ‘Anyway, they’ve gone,’ the Irish man said.

  ‘What’s that all down your front?’ Seth scrambled on his hands and knees out of the pipe.

  ‘Pigeon shit. Flying rats.’ River glowered. ‘Pig insisted on going down the basement. The bloody things flew out. Should have locked her in there.’

  They hauled Victoria upright. ‘They took their bloody time,’ Seth said, pulling the blanket from her.

  River leaned against the wall of the small building that surrounded the pipe. He finished rolling a joint and licked the cigarette paper to seal it, all the while leering at Victoria.

  ‘Mind you, we didn’t waste ours. Eh, Summer?’ Seth wiped his thumb over her cheek.

  As though he could wipe away all the dirt… Victoria bit down on her lip to stop the trembling. She felt dirty inside. Used. At first, when she’d been bundled out of one of the side doors she was bewildered. Being shoved down into the tunnel was degrading. Even after Seth told her he was protecting her, that the police would make her go back home, she was still angry. She might not have chosen to come to this awful old mill of all places but she had chosen to leave home – to be free. No one could make her go back to Llamroth. She was eighteen and she made her own choices about her life.

  But she’d no control over what Seth had done. The sex wasn’t what she’d wanted. It made her sick to think about him pushing against her, ignoring her protests, oblivious to her cries of pain as she tried to steady herself against the rough surface of the pipe.

  However he looked at her now, with the usual tenderness and concern, Victoria realised that she didn’t know Seth. Or what she meant to him.

  ‘Just get me out of here,’ she said, ‘I need a wash.’

  Seth frowned.

  Since her arrival Victoria had become used to flashes of anger crossing his face when he was annoyed and it made her nervous. Being uneasy wasn�
�t something she was used to. Still, to placate him, she waved her arm towards the tunnel. ‘Horrible thing,’ she said, unaccustomed to the apprehension that flooded through her and unable to stop the tears.

  He stood still, distanced from her. ‘At least it hid you from the pigs.’ He stared. ‘What I don’t understand is why they’re looking for you here.’ He glowered. ‘You didn’t tell your lot where you were going, did you?’

  ‘How could I? I didn’t know where I was going. And I haven’t been outside since I arrived.’ Her hands curled and uncurled.

  His face cleared. He leaned forward and kissed her, then stepped back. ‘Hell, you’re right, you stink.’ He grinned.

  ‘You’re not so sweet yourself?’ She forced a smile, desperate to get away from him. ‘I’ll go and wash.’ But she was thankful he wasn’t angry with her anymore. She needed the security of being his favourite. When the warning had first gone around that it was her the police were looking for, she sensed the antagonism that swept across everyone’s face as she was passed from one to the other and then quickly taken away by Seth. She knew that as far as they were concerned she was a threat to them, to the commune. But with Seth still on her side they wouldn’t dare demand she be kicked out. The last thing she wanted was to be forced to return to her old life: to go back to having to compete and be compared with Richard. For a moment she felt bad, she wouldn’t have wanted to go through half what her brother had and still insist on going to that uni. Art college had been an easy option for her – she’d been glad to leave school at sixteen.

  The thought was fleeting; she needed to worry about herself.

  Even as she hurried back into the building she was excusing what Seth had done, rationalising the rough sex. Love-making, she amended the thought. He’d obviously wanted her so badly. After all they hadn’t seen much of one another over the last week; he was still so occupied with settling into this place. So he … they, she corrected herself again, had just made the most of the situation.

  And she wouldn’t tell him that she’d caught a glimpse of Jackie, from her window. She’d bobbed down when she saw her look up. She certainly wouldn’t tell anyone it was her cousin looking for her. Interfering cow. What on earth had made her look for her here?